Eugene Forsey Liberal

Saturday, August 25, 2012

A post about posting

A note to any readers: There is a post or two I would still like to write. And there are some posts I would like to edit. I make this note as I do not want any readers to think that all is done. When I have the opportunity, I will do so.

Friday, August 24, 2012

Good Faith

Good will, good faith discussion is always good.

(edited to remove unbiased by unfair framing devices . Unnecessary. Mean spirited. )

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Reading in Good Faith

I started this blog in a fit of anger, back in the Summer of 2006. Over time, I wrote posts, started a couple of twitter accounts which though lacking in official followers, seemed useful in political engagement, and created two facebook accounts, used only for online political activities. As I was working as a polemicist, much of what I have written has been sharp-tongued, and as the preceding post makes clear, I am happy to correct any and all mistakes and excesses. To go back and read through all my posts to find things to criticise, would be easy enough, given their polemical tone. And there are a few occasions where I have given voice to extremely odd hypotheses, knowing how odd they would sound, but it was my honest impression they might be true, even knowing that.

I have not written many posts for a year now, for various reasons. And like everyone, I am sure my life has its elements which can be criticised, many of which I am doubtless unaware myself, although in these matters much depends on how things are presented.

I do not think I have the time or resources to sit down and carefully edit everything I wrote, once upon a time, as a polemicist, in which role I thought I had some success. As noted, I am happy to respond to any and all complaints. I can think of a lot things I would change myself. One writes in good faith, as a kind of  polemicist, and that is that, as far as one is concerned.

It would seem that some associations from my past may be used against me. I don't know if in self-defense I should name them and what I suspect, since I fear that if I was wrong, I would do them unjustified harm. But they may be looking to hurt me, themselves, with false accusations, or as negative depictions of me as possible.

I'm pretty sure there is enough media interest in certain elements related to me, that given journalists' nature, they are going to do some story or other, sooner or later. But I do not want to hurt anyone who does not deserve it, and even if they do, can it be avoided? It seems like they are willing to use almost any kind of method to get a story, despite all the hurt that can be done.

Kim McWilliam, my ex-girlfriend, seems to be at the centre of things. I have a great opinion of her, so I don't know what her connection can be. It seems to include people in the media, including people Kim has known, and their enmity for me, and for her, perhaps. A doctor seems to be involved. And some prominent people in society, maybe media, maybe Hollywood-related. The name Russell Hornsby keeps being mentioned. As far as I know, these are all private matters that writing about on this blog should not affect. And for some reason, these things have led to many problems for me. I'm not a journalist - despite everything, I want to avoid hurting other people, especially if they are blameless. And journalists are supposed to distinguish between matters of public interest and crap.

So if I am wrong, I ask no-one use this as an excuse to do anything, especially anything harmful. No-one deserves their life being messed with for mere titillation. And we all have our failings, our moments of embarrassment, of weakness. I will quickly remove this post and a previous one, and others, if it becomes clear I am wrong.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Good Faith, Good Will...and Fallibility

This blog has always been written in good faith and good will, as have my twitter accounts, etc., and I have repeatedly said I was willing to correct and apologise for any mistakes or excesses that were brought to my attention. This has rarely occurred. But I restate that policy here, for any interested parties, as regards everything in this blog. I think I have done a noteworthy amount of good, but everyone makes mistakes, commits excesses. If any are pointed out to me, I will happily apologise and make the needed corrections. On a couple of occasions, I have said things that seem very odd, as a result of observations and knowledge. I have acknowledged at the time these were odd statements, but felt obliged to make them, as they seemed true.

I am proud of this blog, and the work I have done, in various ways, to try to work for the common good, as I see it. I think I accomplished quite a bit. But, as previously stated, these things are subjective and I quite understand how some could disagree.

I hope that I, and others, are always of good faith and understanding about these things. Liberal democracy requires that we try to have as free speech as possible, within reasonable limits, about which reasonable people can disagree.

Monday, August 20, 2012

La question linguistique et l'épanouissement du Québec : une proposition

Longtemps j'ai gardé en tête une proposition permettant la réconciliation des communautés linguistiques au Québec, et par ce fait, l'épanouissement de la société québécoise, tout en respectant l'impératif de protéger et promouvoir le français. Étant donné l'élection en cours, il est temps que j'en fais part (un peu comme ma proposition pour mieux coordonner les services aux pauvres). J'en ai beaucoup étudié la question linguistique à l'Université de Montréal, et plus de suivre le dossier d'assez près, comme tout Québécois. Les solutions dont je discuterai, j'en ai déjà parlé avec François Vaillancourt, dans le temps (je doute qu'il s'en souvienne, mais je le mentionne puisqu'il est bien connu pour ses études dans le domaine) et plusieurs professeurs et experts.

Il y a de graves questions de comment mieux protéger et promouvoir le français, mais selon moi, la gestion de la situation passe par une réflexion philosophique (encore une, au Québec:). Une bonne majorité des anglophones, bon nombre des allophones, et assez de francophones, s'opposent férocement à la législation linguistique en vigueur en ce moment, la jugeant trop coercitive. Mais ils vivent avec la législation, tant bien que mal. Or, leur mal avec le cadre législatif actuel est tel qu'il existe un fort sentiment d'aliénation au sein des opposants, en particulier parmi les anglophones, qui a d'énormes conséquences négatives pour le Québec tout entier  - sa cohésion sociale, la perte de jeunes bilingues et trilingues qui s'établissent ailleurs, pertes économiques, sa réputation à l'international, et autres.

Chez la majorité francophone, on a souvent remarqué une double pensée sur la question linguistique. Quand les francophones considèrent la question d'une angle collective, ils sont largement favorables au cadre linguistique actuel (et certains voudraient le rendre plus coriace), et plus il y a des tensions, plus ils se disent des supporteurs des dispositions coercitives. En contrepartie, quand ils abordent la question d'une perspective individuelle ou familiale, ils s'opposent aux contraintes sur la liberté individuelle.

Donc, quoique les dispositions actuelles sont largement acceptées dans la vie de tous les jours, le prix à payer c'est l'aliénation d'une bonne part de la population dont le Québec en a besoin, comme plusieurs l'ont constaté, notamment Lucien Bouchard dans son célèbre discours au Centaur, quand il fut Premier ministre.

Comment faire la protection et promotion optimales de la langue française au Québec? Est-ce que cela passe par les mesures coercitives actuelles, ou de plus en plus coercitives, mais qui sont ignorés par certains anglophones et autres, aliénés?

On commence à comprendre que le noeud du problème de la question linguistique demeure dans l'application de mesures ouvertement coercitives visant les fins légitimes de protéger et promouvoir la langue française, sans que, d'une perspective anglophone, cela devrait nécessairement impliquer la mise en péril du fait anglais au Québec.

Comment atteindre nos fins de protéger et promouvoir la langue française, sans aliéner les anglophones et autres, avec toutes les conséquences mentionnées?

Remarquez, le problème de services en français ne réside pas chez la majorité francophone, ou peu, mais chez les récalcitrants, surtout anglophones. La question à se poser c'est la suivante : est-ce que notre but est de, symboliquement, maintenir ou renforcer un cadre législatif largement perçu

La solution, selon moi, passe par le remplacement des mesures ouvertement coercitives par des mesures apparemment incitatives, mais dont l'effet serait, dans les faits, tout aussi coercitif, sinon plus, mais une coercition "soft", invisible, et donc qui diminuerait grandement l'aliénation anglophone, renforcerait leur adhésion au cadre linguistique, leur sentiment d'appartenance au Québec avec tous les positifs prévisibles (réputation du Québec etc.).

L'idée de crédits d'impôts au lieu d'amendes n'est pas nouvelle, plusieurs administrations et penseurs ont jonglé avec ces questions, l'équilibre à atteindre, mais la proposition actuelle propose (ou rappelle, si d'autres, dans les brumes des temps l'ont déjà faits) un cadre incitatif complet, avec certains minimums bien sûr.

Actuellement, la législation linguistique prévoit, comme toute loi, des sanctions pour désobéissance, généralement financières. Si on éliminerait les amendes et que l'on proposerait au lieu des crédits d'impôts à toute entreprise qui atteindrait tel out tel niveau de services en français (les crédits pourraient s'échelonner selon les niveaux de services offerts), étant donné tous les efforts de francisation déjà faites depuis des années, il est fort probable qu'une infime part (si aucune) des entreprises serait prête à défaire les mesures déjà prises et de se mettre en position compétitive inférieure v.-à-v. ses concurrents, qui profiteraient, eux, des crédits d'impôts.

Donc, quoiqu'en apparence moins coercitive que le cadre législatif actuel, si l'on réfléchisse au fonctionnement du capitalisme, et le parcours déjà fait pour protéger la langue française, la dynamique d'un système de crédits d'impôts, à l'heure actuelle (contrairement aux années 1970, 1980 etc.) atteindrait mieux et autant les fins de protection et de promotion de la langue française. Mais le fait que ce soit par le biais de crédits d'impôts, et non par amendes, changerait entièrement la perspective des anglophones, allophones et libertariens. Chacun aurait le droit de refuser de profiter des crédits d'impôts, mais excessivement rares seraient ceux qui s'auto-puniraient en le faisant.

Il faudrait quand même établir un minimum de services obligatoirement offerts en français, à un niveau qui serait jugé légitime par les différents communautés linguistiques. Je proposerai qu'une version renforcée du standard fédéral soit adoptée, soit que la langue française doit être présente dans toute interaction, en priorité. C'est à dire que toute communication, écrite comme orale, doit commencer par le français, et que le français doit être prééminente s'il y a plus qu'une langue employée : on répondrait au téléphone en français d'abord, sur les affiches le français viendrait en premier, ou serait en haut, etc.. Les crédits d'impôt inciteraient les entreprises à maintenir et à renforcer leurs pratiques jusqi'ici. Une entreprise, comme plusieurs le font déjà, pourrait très bien n'offrir ses services qu'uniquement en français, avec tous les avantages fiscaux que cela implique.

Or, les entreprises qui sont les plus récalcitrantes aux contraintes linguistiques actuelles sont maintenues par des anglophones ou autres. Ce groupe, qui refuse d'obéir à la loi telle que rédigée, serait plus apte à accroître les services en français s'ils se sentaient moins aliénés, ce qu'un système de crédits d'impôts, avec une base minimale de services offerts en français, permettrait.

[Note: ce billet est incomplet, mais je me suis dit qu'il valait la peine de le débuter, et de le publier, pour faire circuler les idées. J'y reviendai bientôt.]

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Media

After the last post, and because of others, it is entirely possible elements of the media, instead of appreciating my efforts to push and pull debate and work for a healthier media-political system, and using my post as the basis for stories, will try to attack me. It is possible they will not engage on the merits, but try to attack my credibility on various fronts. (ex: After I wrote the preceding post, I wondered whether I should publish it, and then, having published it, reconsidered briefly, making it private for a few minutes before making it public again. That seems like reasonable second thoughts to me, and if subsequent investigation reveals there is something to what I have written, then it just further validates me, and makes criticism over reasonable second thoughts all the less pertinent.) Among the attacks may be attacks not on my writing, but on my person and character. Any post where I assumed a polemical tone to excess, any mistake I ever made, any occasion when I was silly, may well be used, unless they just decide to ignore the whole thing. It should be noted that I have myself steadfastly, as the previous post noted, insisted on public interest aspects, and noted only a few things, with the most discreet references. I trust that if the media take an interest, they will use the public interest criteria for this and related matters. And of course, any such attacks, if one was being fair, could be used against any critics themselves.
And anyone associated with me in any way may find themself subject to similar attacks.

I write always for the public good, and whatever occasional excesses, without animus. I always write in good faith and good will. I hope others will do the same. And it should be noted that it seems extremely probable that the Canadian media know who among them was responsible for hacking and deleting my tweets, about which I wrote over a year ago. And about which no-one has still spoken  - so readers should consider that when considering questions of credibility. An entire media which knows about hacking and deleting and keeps quiet for over a year, or one individual trying to get them to investigate matters of legitimate public interest.

Trying to understand

I am happy to correct any and all mistakes in the following post. It is written in good faith, as I try, as best I can, to understand things. That statement applies to all previous posts as well, sometimes written in the grip of passionate feelings over politics, public policy issues. I suspect there are many in the media who disagree with my analysis of various matters, including any influence I may have had, or any role I may have played. As far as I am concerned, these are good faith disagreements. I have tried to be brave (and sometimes failed, and been craven instead) to express various hypotheses at times, and these could make me look silly, to say the least. I have no problem admitting I am wrong or wrong-headed when convinced of such, but people of good faith can have good faith disagreements, or different perceptions of the same thing.

In what I write below, I write in search of aid in researching related matters of public interest, in the strict journalistic sense, about which I am seemingly still too ignorant (and I am not a journalist).

There appear to be some matters that many people know about, that involve piquant details. They seem to have some connection to my move to Vancouver in Fall 2010. They also seem to relate to possible surveillance of me by private parties, involving a large media corporation. [22/08/12 NB. I know how that last sentence sounds. But it was my impression.]

In early August 2011 I became aware that my tweets had been hacked, and a massive percentage erased. I wrote about this, and that seems to have set in motion a series of events that brought to where I am today.

I left Vancouver, feeling subject to some weird phenomenon I did not yet understand. I lived in Ottawa over Christmas and for a couple of months afterward, after my mother broke her leg in a car accident, my father was unable to drive, so I was the stand-in chauffeur, and helped a bit.

I moved to Toronto. I got a job at Tim Horton's within a couple of days, needing a job as soon as possible. It has seemed like a lot of odd things have happened around me in Toronto. While in Toronto, I observed media reports. Though a layperson, I had once worked in media monitoring for Health Canada and Reference Canada, and occasionally have some grasp of media interplay.
As I tried to grasp the various references I became aware that I was the passing victim of this phenomenon, and there were other stories involved, including some person, or persons of note, and various escapades (a pool, a beach, urban geographical landmarks, are all themes evoked, as well as  women's rights). Along the way I got the impression of some other things of similar note. As far as I know, these are all private matters, so I do not say anything further. Lacking information, I cannot say what is relevant to matters of public interest, and what is not. And I may be mistaken.

But the problem seems to be that if I do not write about these things now-ish, the public interest aspects may never be known. But I fear that if I do write about them, then it may end up being more about titillating personal matters, and less about the public interest, and I fear I may do unfair, undue harm to others. That is why it has been so hard for me to decide.

I clearly do not understand a lot of media etiquette, because I know many know more than me, but apparently I must speak of it for public investigations to happen. Although it seems there is enough interest that there may be reports about particular aspects sooner or later. So best to ask the question, as carefully as possible, insisting upon the public interest aspects.

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

France

Thinking about Poland has me thinking about France, since I went to the Lycée in Warsaw, and France and Poland have historically had a special relationship. Many of the conservatives who, intentionally or through simple-mindedness, ended up being labeled as dissidents, went into exile in France. That was the typical choice they were given, stay and be treated as deemed appropriate, or leave. From the regime's point of view, even if most dissidents were just minor nuisances, and although they could use the methods of damaging their reputation on a personal level, there was always the risk that this might rebound in some minor way, among those few insignificant individuals who might perceive so-and-so not as some sort of foolish deviant, but as the martyred victim of injustice,. It was often less trouble and more effective to have them living abroad, as the regime could better (more easily - less effort) delegitimise them as false patriots, having chosen themselves to abandon their homeland for the easy life elsewhere. And it is true, as the years went by, the disconnect between expatriates and their homeland did tend to grow, and with it, their influence. There are many Paris-es, one of which is that of the rootless expatriates, and it is indeed a pitiful thing to observe these sad creatures, cut off from the reality of their homeland, yet unable to ever really get a grip on Parisian and French culture. A terrible fate for those who once claimed such commitment to their homeland. Worse, in most regards, if not all, than staying in their country and suffering the consequences, which at least offered the corresponding benefit, real and psychological, of feeling martyred and having a few others agree, and thus, in their own minds, however disordered, having suffered their fate, or continuing to suffer it, at least free from some psychological constraints. Far away, such sad cases lose relevance. At home, although few would credit anything they had to say, even a few could be an unnecessary nuisance for the regime, given the cost-benefit of just seeing them leave, and any influence they had vanished.

The conservative resistance to communism

I would like to go back and visit Poland. I have not been there since 1989, and things have changed a great deal. Many conservatives who opposed communism have come to power in the years since 1989. Quite a few of them, religious-minded, usually Catholic, but of other religions too, ended up being labeled as dissidents under communism, though in truth they were mostly just simple people of faith. Often, under communism, these folks would have their credibility damaged (if not destroyed) through the use of tactics targetting their personal mores, presenting any such susceptible behaviour as awful in some way, or sometimes inventing damaging stories about them and their associates. But who could tell, in those years? It was only much later that anyone could ever make the proper distinctions. I would like to see the land I knew, the villages I played soccer in, the cafes, and all the rest of it, today, post-communism, with all the changes that have occurred. I am sure I would find it hard to reconcile the country I knew in my youth with the Poland of today, with all the progress that has been made since 1989.

Monday, August 13, 2012

Framing

Through this blog, twitter, facebook and other activity, I was able to do some good, I think. There may be a story, sooner rather than later, in which I am featured. Part of that may well present me as having misunderstood or overstated any role I ever played. That may well be true, to a certain extent, just as one can understate things. It can be difficult to judge. Given time and space, and the resources, I might be able to calmly make my case. But a large percentage of my tweets were hacked and deleted by others, and I have been living under conditions that make such a review difficult for me, though others may have already done their own. No-one knows their material better than themselves, so it would be nice to have a chance myself.

It is easy to frame my story in such a way as to present me poorly, from the media's perspective. If fair-minded, and I was given a fair chance, I could provide some counter-weight, I think.

I have no control over these matters, obviously. But it is important to make note of framing when considering how stories are presented.

The story involving me

I have made a brief note of what I understand regarding my story. I am writing now, editing it, as I wait for the media to possibly run one, possibly focussing on other, unfair aspects, wrongly. Though perhaps there won't be a story by the Canadian media, nor a post etc., by myself.

Tonight on the News

Tonight on the news, or tomorrow morning, or very soon, it is possible there will be one or more reports depicting me in a unflattering light. I cannot be entirely wrong if I write this and am correct.

It would demonstrate a certain media savvy and prescience if I was correct.

Sincere, Deepest, Apology to Media

I apologise unreservedly to any and all well-meaning media who I have unfairly criticised, through ignorance, and under stress, sometimes using an unpleasant tone. I greatly appreciate all your good work and apologise most deeply and humbly for my faults.

Jonah Bergbusch

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Media - advice to myself and others

I have written quite a bit since this, here and there. Sometimes, a few in the media have had some enmity for me. I maintain the media, on the whole, taken as a whole, are idealistic and mean well, whatever individual incidents one may experience. They live by Voltaire's dictum, "I disapprove of what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it." They are doing what they can, from their perspective, to be good and do good, collectively. It's important to remind oneself of that, since from time to time, one can feel overwhelmed by apparent negativity. I think it is mostly only apparent. Journalism is a calling for most, and all the related matters, ethics, etc., they take most seriously.

Saturday, August 11, 2012

London 2012 - On the Importance of Good Will

London 2012 has me thinking about the importance of good will in sport. I try to almost always operate under assumptions of good faith. I always say I'm from Montreal, because that's where I've lived by choice the most, as an adult, and where I feel most at home, but in truth I grew up in Ottawa and in some ways am more of an Ottawa boy. (My Dad may insist he's from Spruce Grove and Saskatchewan, but really, after his long career in Ottawa, where he still lives in retirement, with all his friends, and all the other Ottawa folk you get to know over the years, he's an Ottawan). Like lots of people, I guess, we have family and friends across Canada, trying to act according to what may sometimes seem like old-fashioned codes of behaviour.

The London Games have me thinking about these matters, sometimes feeling out of synch with prevailing codes of behaviour. And in my own life there has always been a contradiction in the sporting philosophy as taught to me by my brothers, soccer and hockey coaches. On the one hand, always try to act with sportsmanship. But on the other hand, one can't be entirely naive. And my brother Matt, in particular, since we loved the 1982 West German soccer team ("Rummenigge and the Ten Robots", as Pele called them), imbued in me the occasional need for the values of a Stielike, though I rarely act in that manner. It seems paradoxical, but it is not - as long as games are fairly refereed, there is no need for Stielike-type behaviour. But if things start getting out of control, then Stielike-ism is a way for the game to self-regulate, much as is the case in hockey, as all Canadians know (like Larry Robinson's great reluctance to play dirty, or fight, as hard as he played, though he was quite effective when he did).

But when you watch the Olympics, the whole point of which, in theory, is camaraderie and fair play, is the competition not wrecked when it descends into unsportsmanlike behaviour? What's the point of playing if that's how things are going to be? Imagine the ethical-moral choice for well-meaning competitors - play fair and be guaranteed to lose (and probably lose badly), or join in the corruption of sport (like the dilemma posed by doping) for a chance to compete on a level playing field. Given social pressure, competitors must feel they have to keep a lot of things they know to themselves, or be ostracised. But in so doing, they may feel they have become complicit in things of which they greatly disapprove. Not an easy situation, or choice, I clearly sympathise.

The answer to these dilemmas is structural, I've always thought. Get the interested parties together and, with third-party oversight and intervention (to ensure good faith), come up with systems that provide the carrots and sticks, and general ethos, to ensure fair and healthy competition. It is very hard to do (how many times have we heard that "THIS TIME", FIFA and UEFA were going to reform themselves, for real? Not to mention the Olympics themselves.) But it does happen and it is doable.

I suppose I could go on, I have a lot of observations about sport and the Olympics, but it's my way to keep most things to myself, and try to stick to essentials (even though, I admit, I can be quite prolix if not careful. These things are never easy to judge.) The important thing to remember is to play fair, lest we all get dragged into making a degrading spectacle of sport. (It can be hard, when new to a sport, as I have sometimes experienced, to understand all the nuances of the rules and etiquette, and one can make errors in good faith that seem quite shocking to others. Which is not to say that the questions that seem alien are wrong - they may simply highlight problems hitherto ignored. That's how reform happens.)

Friday, August 10, 2012

Goodness

I have done my bit. I have tried to do the good. I like most all my readers, especially the media, even if they are not always fond of me. They are trying to do the good. I wish you all well.

PS. 12.31pm 10/08/12: trying to do the good and not sure if it is possible, under current conditions.

Openness and Transparency

[First published 8/10/12 1:59AM, then moved to drafts before noon same day (8/10/12). I republish it now - 01/29/2016 10:59PM, as a statement of identity for me, JMTB, and all my loved ones.]
I am trying to provoke debate about matters that many others often know more about than me, which is often what one does. As always, I do not claim to be infallible on all points, as always I look to others to contribute what they know. As far as I know, in good faith, what I say is correct, but I'm sure I make mistakes, and maybe I'm only right on most/many/some points, overstate the case here, understate it there, etc.. Let others come forward and help - I will happily correct all mistakes. And as always, as written below, as stated many times, it's the public interest matters, the policy issues, that count, for me. The rest is irrelevant nonsense,as far as I'm concerned, to the point that I'm willing to try to get any static that might affect my points out of the way, up front. I always write in good faith, I always acknowledge I could be wrong about this or that, and I'm always trying to get others to help, improve our collective knowledge of legitimate matters of public interest, public policy. I hope that clarifies things. As long as we're all of good faith, and good will, we can greatly improve our collective knowledge and make the world a better place.

This blog has always been devoted to playing a role in not just trying to push and pull debate, but also structurally, in trying to bring some openness and transparency to Canadian politics and media, which they are sorely lacking. My years in Poland under Communism gave me a loathing for such closed systems, and Glasnost and Perestroika will reverberate for me forever. The reaction to this blog from the Canadian establishment has not always been terribly favourable, but as I have mentioned before, Canadian politics and media lack oversight mechanisms, and if this blog has been useful in some way in that fashion, then good.

Since I wrote this post, a year ago now, my life has become quite odd, largely as a result of that post and subsequent inquiries and writings.

Why has seemingly so much energy been expended against me, for so long? Fundamentally, what has been done against me is so wrong it deserves accountability, but having already described the phenomena, no-one has spoken, or at least spoken to me.

I have learnt a few things since then.

Most people already know, as noted, there is government bugging etc., of various activists, etc.. One can find quite a few news reports about this matter. This is unsurprising and long-standing practice. I may have been subject to such practices.

Secondly, as has been reported (there are quite a few reports about it), large corporations have the potential to mimic the surveillance capacities of the State, as may have been my experience (some may have tape to that effect? Though I don't know whether all are free to disclose it, if they do).

The phenomena should be exposed though, especially the dirty tricks, which were partly designed to try to make me believe in false narratives (many of the mistakes I have made are the result of this, trying to make me believe things that are untrue, or overstate my case and look bad that way). I knew what was happening though, but as well orchestrated as some things were, it was impossible not to be affected, at times. If there is tape of me, you will hear a man trying to collaborate as little as possible with the phenomenon he is experiencing, so mostly lugubrious, as opposed to my usual jolly self. But on occasion, things were so well orchestrated as to provoke strong reactions from me - if there is tape, as I think there may well be, if people are honest, then there a couple of moments of me sobbing with emotion. Given the pressures I was under (still am), unsurprising. But again, best to note it now, as well as how uncommunicative and moody I may seem - as previously noted, I feel/felt I should collaborate as little as possible with the phenomenon, ethically for myself, and for others' sake (to associate with me was to associate with a "radical" by the Canadian Government, apparently. This, for a fierce anti-communist, from a tradition of liberal/social-democratic Christian humanism, whose mother lived in England in WW2, under the bombs, and on whose German side of the family, my father had an uncle who helped refugees from Germany to Holland, was caught, offered a bullet or the front-line, and as a WW1 vet, went to the front-line, and according to family legend, convinced the others to run up the white flag when the Americans approached. A good war, yes? Radical, me? Screw that. Oh, and my parents met, fell in love, were engaged and had their first child in Israel. So none of that anti-German BS.)

What else? Well, an awful lot of people know about the phenomena I described previously, and they know of the others I am describing now. Since by this point many are foreigners, I am hopeful that the truth will come out, as having passed the limits of Canada.

Within Canada, having apparently been designated as an "Enemy of the State", or "radical" (
2?)
- mostly for blogging, tweeting, and facebooking! - most my friends have taken their distance, understandably, given the consequences for them, and some have been used by the State and others against me. I lived in Poland and East Germany 1986-1989 - these things happen under such circumstances. You have to be understanding.

Listen, I went to Trinity College School, Lycée français de Varsovie, Glendon-York U, UdM, SFU, taught at university in France, worked for the think tank CPRN, worked in government, business, made a bid presentation to Orléans City Council in France, and so on. (until my lofty position at Tim Horton's today, living in a university residence :) My Dad was an ambassador, working his way up from a nine-person pastor's family in the prairies, and my Mum was the second female officer in the British Council, the first to be allowed to go to a "hardship" post like India. She was a top administrator and taught at university in Israel, when she met my Dad. You go through my relatives and friends  - we know the world a bit. And change is needed.

OK, now I'll see what happens. There's a lot more to be said, but this is a good start, seems to me.

PS. Some of the things that have happened seem to possibly relate to personal matters to do with me, but about which I am clueless, or I may have some clues, but cannot speak for fear of making grievous mistakes on the personal level. Personal is personal and public is public, but since this apparently a possibility, I should evoke it. If others know, let them educate me, discreetly, so I may understand and better judge what is to be done (or not). Though it seems that some of it may have to with some "untouchable" type. And there may be an important media type or two who has played a role in my experiences over the past year. But others know more than me, and I am happy to acknowledge errors and correct mistakes.

It seems like there may be those who mean me harm just for evoking some of the things I have evoked. As stated at the outset, I write in good faith, with good will for all. But if there are matters of grave public interest, then am I obliged to to uncover them, even at the risk of great self-harm? Or are there some so intent on harm that it makes no odds, and I might as well speak of these things?

When I wrote this on April 20th, I made all my usual caveats, but I was clearly wrong on some things. I should have considered the private sector possibilities more closely, and personal factors.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Good Faith

Everything is art, including, perhaps especially, truth, or elements containing some truth. But I am not an artist. I try to be truthful, given what little I know. My own perspective is inherently limited. And I operate in good faith. I count on others to do the same. 

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Once upon a time, and today

Once upon a time, on the spur of the moment, aghast at the mistreatment of M. Dion, I started a blog, while I was sick at home (I had started an MPP at SFU in 2005, but fallen sick, so had to interrupt/abandon it, and was at my parents' home in Ottawa, where I also helped my mother care for my sick father). My father (and sometimes mother) had recurring health problems so I ended up staying in Ottawa for a couple of years, looking after my father and sometimes mother, and getting back in shape myself. Over time, on and off, without any plan, just as I felt, I wrote quite a bit about Canadian politics and media. I usually only wrote things when I felt there was some egregious matter at hand. I was lucky in my parents, as my father had worked for Foreign Affairs, and he and my mother (British Council) have obviously been great influences on me. As is often the case with children who share their parents' interests, sometimes it can be hard to tell where the father's thinking ends and the son's begins, and vice-versa.

Given this Foreign Affairs background, when the Richard Colvin affair happened, I was able to do some good. I can be quite acerbic in argument, but that is the norm in my family, and I do not think I appreciated, and still do not, just how sensitive others can be about these things. To me, there's the private realm, and there's the public realm. I can be quite sensitive about private matters myself. But in the public realm, it's all good faith philosophical inquiry (anyone ever observed graduate seminars?). Criticism is the highest form of flattery - one only criticises those one deems worthy of criticism.

As I cared so much about the issue of mistreatment of detainees, Colvin's unfair rubbishing, the Order of Parliament, and democracy, I put a lot of effort into things at that time, and I think my activities may have gained in notice. It is my impression that my activities proved helpful to others, in one way or another, which, if it was doing good in public policy terms, was fine by me.

At a certain point, my parents' situation having stabilised, and also wanting to ensure some independence for my activities, I moved to Vancouver in the Fall of 2010, where I stayed with a friend while I got my bearings. As is often the case, living in close quarters can be awkward, what with having to schedule one's activities to avoid bothering someone else. We've all been there, needing the time and space to do one's own thing. And of course, it makes bringing girls over quite challenging :). So soon enough, I moved into my own place.

It was at this time that I stopped writing for a while, thinking at the time it might be for good, as I had done what I could.

I resumed my activities for the duration of the 2011 Federal election, and then stopped again. I was off job-hunting, and when after a few weeks I idly checked my accounts, I noticed my twitter account had been hacked, and my blog had been hacked in this period, so I wrote a post asking about that. I started to feel uncomfortable living in Vancouver, what with one thing and another, so I moved on. But I thought I should try to figure out about some phenomena I had observed, or thought I had, so I went and asked some people who might know, wrote up some hypotheses, odd as they sounded, in good faith, and waited to see if others and I would learn anything worthwhile.

There may be a whole lot more going on than I imagined - well of course there is, there always is, in all matters, since each of us writes from the limited perspective of one person.

After leaving Vancouver, I stayed with my parents in Ottawa for Christmas, during which time my mother had a car accident and broke her leg. My father not being able to drive, I stayed around until my mother could drive, and then headed to Toronto, my funds depleted. I was lucky enough to get a job at Tim Horton's soon after I arrived, and am on the verge of moving into a new place, small but good for me.

And this is where I am today, having started a blog on the spur of the moment to defend a good man, felt I have done some good, been hacked so having asked about that phenomenon in good faith, and other potential phenomena, however odd-sounding, after consulting others. For me, I feel as though I have done pretty much everything I could, and my interest in these matters has led me to ignore my own immediate material self-interest, narrowly defined. Philosophically-minded, I am quite OK working at Tim Horton's for the time being, but obviously there are those close to me who think that given I have in the past worked at a think tank (CPRN), for the Government of Canada (Media Relations - Health Canada; Reference Canada - Political and constitutional instructor), as a lecturer of courses in Canadian history and literature at university in France, made an urban planning bid presentation to Orleans city council in France, been the manager of a cafe in London UK, with 12 employees and turnover of over 1M pounds, and things like that, that I should get settled into a higher-status job. I don't disagree, it's just that there was this recent period of my life where pursuing my inquiries in good faith took so much time that I could only fulfill Tim Horton's type jobs at the same time. That period is coming to a close, so there is no reason I shall not, eventually, resume a more typical career path.

I have always tried to write in good faith and goodwill, and I have always focussed on the public policy-public sphere. I am sure that all would approve such conduct. Too often, it seems "static" gets in the way of healthy public debate. I hope what I have done has helped make our public debate healthier, and I would like to think that might be an example to others. It is far too easy to fall into the vortex of matters unrelated to the public realm, and lose sight of the public good. It is only natural, for all of us, when faced with "static", that we look to respond in like fashion. Understandable, and it could be argued that perhaps in extreme cases it is necessary, but I disagree. As much as is possible, as long as is possible, if it is the public good we care about, then it is the public good we must focus on. The rest is nonsense.

Friday, July 13, 2012

I Thank All People of Goodwill

[ 9.15am 16/07/12 - I think I am starting to understand some things, but I will wait and see. I will leave everything as is until I know for sure. I have been living a horror and I wish no equivalent suffering on anyone, no matter what they have done or have not done. I hope everyone is OK, and see no point in any gratuitous harm - if we all take an eye for an eye, we'll all end up blind. I, more than anyone, know that everyone has the right to privacy.]

I am glad that whatever has been going on is becoming known.

This blogpost is just to say thank you to all people of goodwill who have tried to help me when dealing with some difficult things.

There may a Red Scare phenomenon that led to this situation.

I have said many times I am just trying to figure out what is going on.

And I freely admit that there are many things I don't understand.

But at a certain point it seemed like email might be getting hacked, from what I could read, and so I wrote emails, or didn't, under the assumption that might be the case, hoping in a couple of cases to perhaps ignite a reaction that would confirm that hacking was going on.

I hoped that might respond to the hacking problem, if there was one.

And then my twitter account was hacked, and hundreds of tweets destroyed.

And when I tried to open and use this blog, or put it on hiatus, my efforts kept being reversed, why, who, I don't know.

So I asked about things in good faith.

I meant to stop blogging then, but weirdness continued, so I asked people about it who might know. Some inferred there might be something to it. I wrote about that, and asked what, if anything, anyone knew about that, admitting how limited my information was, and saying I was open to correcting any and all mistakes, as I wrote in good faith.

I am glad that whatever has been going on is becoming known. I have always operated in good faith. And I hope that others will do likewise.

I sometimes worry that concerns about self-interest may unconsciously outweigh good people's innate desire to be good, and of good faith.

I think that at the very least, my actions may have done some good in exposing some inequitable situations, which is all to the good.

Thanks again to all the good people for all their good work in trying to do the right thing, honestly.

PS. I have used my facebook accounts to make notes of various incidents I have had to deal with, with the impression that some friends and others in the media might make note of things, and make inquiries. I usually make notes for "friends" and then make them private, so as to avoid aggravating any media who might know about the phenomenon and take an interest. I have just been trying to get things out there, so others, better placed than me, might investigate them. I hope I have done some good. Some of my posts seem to have gone missing - hacked again, or I misplaced them somehow? Anyway, the facebook accounts are: http://facebook.com/rumminegge and http://facebook.com/eugene.forsey.liberal I hope this strategy has been successful in getting media and others to investigate things, without getting their backs up too much. Make notes, then make them private, so as to avoid mistakes, as much as possible. This previous post, I put everything on the table so as to try to provoke a reaction and get things investigated - I was purposefully provocative. I hope it has worked.

PPS. I have also made notes on my twitter accounts, http://twitter.com/eflib and http://twitter.com/rumminegge though hundreds of previous tweets were erased. Again, I hope these notes helped provoke reflection and investigation. If things are coming to light now, then it would seem the strategy was successful.

PPPS. I have thus far only performed a cursory review of any influence I may have had, just to give an idea. These things are very subjective and very much in the eye of the beholder. But for what it's worth, if one reads through the following posts, and then reads the comments, one will see my own, personal, subjective, analysis of what was achieved. Others may agree or disagree in good faith, or diminish or heighten the importance, depending on their own subjectivity. All well and good, since I was just trying to do some good, as I'm sure is everyone's first objective.

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/04/gardner-his-ottawa-ilk-are-orangemen.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/10/wise-reguly-wise-quebec-le-canada-quand.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/09/bonhomme-la-une-un-exemple-de.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/11/smart-patriotic-afgh-motion-from-bloc.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2011/03/lpc-get-ads-ready-now-for-when-harper.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2011/04/lpc-proposed-letting-ag-disclose-report.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2011/05/60-of-canadians-voted-for-higher-taxes.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2011/05/jack-laytons-bawdy-massage-gerry-caplan.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2009/11/mulroney-inverse-ratio-of-bafflegab-to.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2007/11/read-distribute-dont-let-them-bury-this.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/01/cc-crowd-reports-2-capstick-quibble.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/10/khadr-extraordinary-excision-of-crucial.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/02/giamb-upshot-govt-regulation-of-media.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/10/save-omar-khadr-save-our-souls.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/08/ras-la-barbe-arroseurs-laicistico.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/05/la-separation-ne-se-fera-pas-loco.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/10/30-octobre-1995-et-suites-je-me.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/08/coderre-doan-les-lecons-lessons-efl.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/03/james-bartleman-for-gg.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2008/09/hello-hq.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/06/conservatives-tough-on-wisdom-tough-on.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/09/how-serious-people-think-about.html

http://eugeneforseyliberal.blogspot.ca/2010/01/reform-suggestion-re-prorogation-time.html

PPPPS. It seemed to me that my tweets sometimes proved helpful to the media, and thus had a positive political effect, from my view, though these things are very difficult to judge, very subjective. Of course, given the hacking and vandalism of my twitter account, hundreds have disappeared. Here are a couple of examples, though (note times and dates):
a) "‏@EFLib @dividedmajority CPC anti-NDP ads 2 aims:attack NDP in CPC-NDP swing ridings;legitimise NDP as threat in LPC-CPC swings, help NDP bleed LPC "
https://twitter.com/EFLib/status/61571767369613312

http://www.ledevoir.com/opinion/blogues/le-blogue-electoral/321795/harper-attaque-layton-pour-nuire-a-ignatieff

b) http://twitter.com/ccpa/status/6663174383 (retweeted July 6,2011,5:40ish,rt b4 next 2,just after street corner argument about HST w/BCNDP, Denman-Nelson)
http://twitter.com/EFLib/status/88771247688785920
http://twitter.com/EFLib/status/88772121198739456

http://www2.canada.com/topics/bodyandhealth/story.html?id=5061923

PPPPPS. https://www.facebook.com/rumminegge/posts/10151082442456959 This may just be a case of thinking along very similar lines. But still, strikingly similar lines.

PPPPPPS. I currently work full-time at the Bay-Bloor Tim Horton's in Toronto.  I, who have worked at the CPRN think tank, and taught courses at University in France, and worked in government jobs, etc., have never been embarrassed about working at whatever kind of job I need to, given my circumstances. I came to Toronto, I was poor, so I took the first job I could get, at Tim Horton's. One would have to be a terrible snob to see something wrong with that. So again, unless one is a terrible snob, and chooses to disregard all my education, experience and background, that would be an extraordinarily dirty, snobbish way of trying to attack my credibility.

[mildly edited 26/07/12]

Friday, April 20, 2012

Bugging, hacking, spying, attacks, etc.

14/08/12 12:35am It is now clear that there are further errors in this post. I will make corrections as I can.
14/08/12 01:10am Some of the hacking described and perceived as aggressive may actually have been an effort to help me, in some way, possibly. If so, then it was good, not bad.

[26/07/12 It was scary to write this, given I knew very well how odd much of it would sound, but I thought it was necessary - someone should. As I make clear throughout, it was written in good faith, and I am always willing to correct any mistakes.]


Ce qui suit est entièrement en anglais, par besoin de brièveté.

Following up on thisthis and this, I need you to read this piece and to make it as widely known as possible (facebook, email, twitter, blogs, comment boards, conversation, etc.). It is an incredible but true story dealing with government, politics and the media which has immense implications for all our lives, in multiple ways. The only way I can see to try to deal with it is to go public, contrary to all my usual instincts, as anyone who knows me will know. I have to stress now, at the outset, that I have spoken to people like Alex HimelfarbPaul ChampJames H. TaylorTrevor Hache, and John Olthuis about different elements of this situation to make it clear that however unbelievable parts of what I am going to describe may seem (and they certainly seemed that way to me, for a long long time), it is real, or much of it is – it needs to be brought into the light to be properly examined and understood. And for various reasons, some of which elude me, it would seem that the only way this situation can be exposed is if citizens like us make it known and make it impossible to ignore. At the very least, it's out there, now. I've done what I could.

I have made public my two facebook accounts, here and here, so all my notes (often addressed to insiders) and occasional use of analogy, allegory, metaphor and misdirection to describe and analyse events may be available to all interested parties, as are my two twitter accounts, here and here.

Here are some bullet points which need to be disseminated as widely as possible, to concentrate the mind. I will then explore the situation as best I can, as I came to know it, chronologically, from the limited perspective of one individual. I am happy to admit any and all errors and apologise for and correct any mistakes – I write in good faith. Many people (mostly in politics and the media) know and understand much more than me, but since no-one else is talking about it, I will do my best. The whole point of this piece is get this situation out there so as much light can be shed as possible, so as to stop some abuses of power and find ways to make things better.

  • Legal, legitimate political activity (moderate and mainstream even) – writing and talking – can lead to being placed under 24 hour, all-encompassing electronic surveillance by this Government of Canada - this has been my experience for several months now (perhaps longer, but I was made aware of it last summer, though for a long time I thought it might be something more pedestrian, like a series of individuals taping and hacking me…and even that was hard to conceive).
  • As I understand it, this surveillance is only possible through resources shared with the USA under existing agreements, like Echelon.
  • It would seem that individuals acting on behalf of the Government of Canada, (political parties and the media?) have at times tried to mess with me in person, whether tailing me or trying to get me to compromise myself in some way (ex: for a few weeks numerous a succession [edited 22/04/12 4:41pm] (10+) of pretty young girls would appear out of the blue wherever I was, sit beside me and try to engage/provoke me, as well as a couple of boys, which, though flattering, seems highly improbable to have been a succession of random coincidences, given their numbers, attractiveness and age difference).
  • At times, such individuals have engaged in more direct action, like Dave Merleau and Alan Barber, who seemed to put some effort into physically preventing me from sleeping and trying to get at me through conversation while I stayed with a friend of a friend in Ottawa. On the behalf of whose organisation, I cannot say, though I would guess conservative in nature.

Story as I understand it from my limited perspective in chronological order.

On Sunday October 22, 2006, I started the blog Eugene Forsey Liberal on the spur of the moment, in a fury at Stéphane Dion being shouted down and prevented from saying what he wanted to say, by supposed Liberals and federalists in a public debate in Montreal.

I had not meant to become a blogger, and meant to stop after the Liberal leadership race ended, but one thing led to another, and I continued blogging and writing on comment boards, and over time it became my impression that I was having some effect.

I had quietly joined twitter in July 2009 as “Rummi Negge” to observe its usefulness. I observed it was possible to make things happen through its use, that occasionally a meme could grow out of it and become prominent in everyday discourse, as with “busty hookers” and the Rahim Jaffer case, affecting politics and society in some way. After Greg Weston coined the phrase “fake lake” on June 06, 2010 to describe overspending at the G-8 summit, I saw an opportunity to make his alliteration grow and so commenced a humorous campaign on twitter to make it grow, which it did. (Unfortunately, as previously noted, some unhappy soul(s) has(have) put a lot of effort into trying to erase many traces of my work hither and yon.)  I later engaged in some activity on twitter under the second moniker “EFLib”.

Through blogging, writing on comment boards, and tweeting, it seemed to me that I was able to have a some noteworthy effect on public affairs, as people generally took my anonymity as permission to be influenced by me without attribution, and take my thinking and writing as inspiration, to a more or less obvious extent. I had not anticipated this, thinking the pseudonymous “Eugene Forsey Liberal” as worthy of credit as anyone – who knows anyone online? I have always tried to be scrupulous in giving credit myself, with “one exception”. Since I had wished to remain anonymous to protect any family member from being tagged with the brush of my thinking/writing, as well as out of concern for my own privacy, this was a trade-off to which I was able to reconcile myself, though I found it upsetting at times. I was doing some good, and therefore felt I had the obligation to do what I could. Indeed, this dynamic allowed me to influence affairs more than would normally be the case, as in an analogy used by the Globe and Mail, people ran riot being inspired by my work. This was wrong to do without attribution, and it was wrong of the Globe to lay the blame on the shopkeepers for not better protecting their establishments, when the blame must first always fall on the rioters themselves, as noted by Andrew Coyne. Or as Alex Himelfarb replied when I mentioned it was my impression I had had quite a lot of influence on the media and public affairs, “they rip you off all the time”.  

At least the Globe had been nice enough, whatever its motivations, to respond to my post Entre chien et loup…Exeunt Ghostwriter with In praise of ghostly scribes for scientists.

But not having anticipated that anonymity would lead people to think it OK to being inspired without attribution, and then seeing I was doing some good, from my political perspective, as I say, wrong as I thought it was, queasy as it sometimes made me, I felt that as long as the conditions existed to allow to do good (minority government dynamics), it was my obligation to do so. The common good was more important than my own. But it was that Globe editorial, and the conscious psychology behind it, that led me to this point, as I was appalled not just by the thinking, but that the writer(s) would think it OK to boast of it publicly. That indicates not just an individual problem or vendetta against me, but a collective one, when the political-media climate has degraded to the point where one feels comfortable not just doing wrong, but publicly boasting and laughing about it. Loutishness become the norm is unacceptable, and the only way to stop it is to talk about it and denounce it.

Given the motivation behind my work was firstly political, I had not contemplated the full implications from writers’ perspective, a conflict well described by Kate Taylor. Being closer to academics in perspective, I had been occasionally disappointed by the lack of attribution, though in return I had greater political potency. But when I considered matters from the perspective of writers, I felt/feel a certain obligation not to betray the righteous cause of freelancers and the like, who are looking to make a living from their writing. That was not my initial goal myself, though.

The other side to this situation is the enmity I have incurred from elements of the Conservative party and movement, and from elements of the NDP. I believe the Conservative enmity has its roots in work I did to support Richard Colvin and due process starting in the Fall of 2009. Knowing I was read by a goodly number of opinion-makers, when I saw the Conservative government’s disgraceful treatment of Colvin and attempts to whitewash matters, I felt the need to do what I could, which I was well-placed to do, given my understanding of these matters and the language and tricks attempted/used, which are not always obvious to people unused to the ways of the Foreign Affairs department and official Ottawa. I think I had some success in helping others deconstruct the nonsense and push on with parliamentary orders to produce documents. Though this may hard be for some to credit, given my background, education and analytical predisposition, when the 2009-2010 prorogation was declared, I had already thought that if I could help prominent members of the media stand for the production of documents and parliament, something like the anti-prorogation movement would spring up, and much of what happened (the facebook protest phenomenon, etc.) was much as I anticipated (though not the Opposition’s squeamishness at forcing an election on the issue). [I have long tried to influence matters by careful pressure in the right way, at the right time, in the right place, by creating or pushing/pulling inflection points. It is my belief, rightly or wrongly, that I have had some small success over the years, here and there, mostly unnoticed, which was good given the importance of  privacy to me.] I made targeted contributions on facebook and in person, and through others, to try to keep things together. My second contribution was to try to keep the focus on the issue of the Order of Parliament itself, when the prorogation, more easily understood, threatened to obscure it. I got a then friend to convert his website into a tool to help keep minds focussed on the Order of Parliament (I had learnt just how short are the attention spans of the media and politicos). From there on, the Conservatives seem to have become a special problem for me.

My critiques of the NDP’s post-2003 strategy have also caused me some problems with elements of the NDP, which is a pity, since I was once a member of the party.

So it is my very strong impression that through a combination of blogging, facebooking, tweeting, conversation, and occasional motivation of others, I was able to have an unusually influential role in public affairs given my apparently minor position. Unusual because as while in absolute terms quite a few people know of me, several hundred, concentrated in the media and politics in Canada and elsewhere, almost no-one outside those circles does.

In the summer of 2011, given the majority government, I intended to forget politics for a bit and focus my efforts on my own situation. I wrote a couple of emails under my own name as a last bit of help to the Liberals. Shortly afterward, I observed phrases and themes from one of my personal emails appearing in various media outlets. I had had the impression, on and off, that my email had been hacked, but I could find no physical evidence, and that being so, beyond changing my password, there did not seem much I could do, without acting like a paranoid. But now it was clear that my email had indeed been hacked, and seemingly much of the media was privy to it. Yet no-one said or did anything about it. This concerned me not just for myself, but for interlocutors, family, etc.. I eventually tried to deal with it by inviting all interested parties to meet me and get it out of their system, but no luck.

I then became aware that Dave Duprey, who I had counted as a great friend, was party, in some way, for some reason, to some sort of recording of my conversations, or so it seemed. This seemed so crazy an analysis that I went to the hospital to get checked for signs of schizophrenia and mental illness, and the stress of the mind divided against itself led me to seek counselling to prevent suicide. The hospital found nothing underlying wrong with me, nothing clinical, nor did the therapist. But the stress of a mind trying to cope with two diametrically opposed versions of reality is enormous. Once I had become convinced of the betrayal of trust, despite having asked about it, face to face, in a manner that invited self-exculpation of any type, I felt the need to leave Vancouver out of fear I might lose my temper one day and commit some irreversible act.

I went to Toronto where I spoke to Alex Himelfarb, who confirmed my writing had some influence, and made it plain that such tactics, hacking, bugging, etc., are not unknown in Canada among the politically active; indeed he himself works on the assumption that all he says and does is being observed. This was the same analysis I subsequently received from Paul Champ, who declared one can either live with it, or move abroad, if possible. John Olthuis had already made it clear this was common for native groups and those who work with them, as the Globe had reported on its front page in the late summer of 2011. I had also remarked the Globe front page about the Americans being unhappy with the use of their electronic resources for the targeting of legitimate political adversaries in…Yemen. It can be important to read and listen to the media with great care, I have found.

I still found it hard to credit that I would be the target of such surveillance, and that furthermore, its production would be made available to members of the media, politicos, etc. I still thought it more likely that I was the victim of a succession of hacks and recordings.

I ended up spending Christmas with my parents in Ottawa and while there I observed that the phenomenon was continuing. Since I could be sure my parents would not bug me, then the possibilities were either government or some special technology from some private source. Knowing my parents’ neighbours, and the geography, the first option was almost certain.

Before Christmas I had stayed with one of my oldest friends, Alex Côté, who works for Foreign Affairs, and a couple of days into the visit he suddenly, unexpectedly declared an end to a 20-year friendship, and asked me to leave. Now, given the governmental factor, and the pressure he may suffered, it made more sense, and was more understandable, though still hurtful.

While in Ottawa I visited Trevor Hache, whom I had known from a soccer team, and had always seemed like a decent guy. I asked him about various things, particularly media and political dirty tricks, and he said that while he himself had never observed hacking in the media, given the nature of the business, it was entirely plausible. As for the rest of it, he claimed to know no more than me.

Over the Christmas holiday my mother suffered a broken leg in a car accident, which obliged me to become the chauffeur for my father while she recovered. It was in this period that I had the odd experience of having at least 10 extremely pretty young women appear as if by magic wherever I would go (malls, libraries, bars, etc.) and choose to sit beside me, and then strike up conversation with me, something that also occurred with a couple of young men. Given their attractiveness and age difference, and the prevailing mores of male-female relations, it seems impossible these could all have been mere coincidence. I’m just not that charismatic.

Then when I would go play shinny, young guys who claimed they were from Calgary would strike up conversation with me. People identifying themselves as from Calgary early on in conversations was rather a theme for a while, and made me wonder, given everything, if that not might be some code to indicate they were on the good guys’ side from the point of view of the government, etc.. The same thing happened when I went to the Carleton graduate students’ bar. And there were a couple of fellows with whom I played shinny who showed up after I was there and who seemed somewhat familiar, one vaguely resembling a local Ottawa sports writer, another someone I seemed to recognise from political circles. I had already had the impression of crossing paths with three local writers who exhibited marked behaviour when they saw me, two on two different buses, one on an escalator. One of them left his bus almost as soon as he noticed me noticing him, was my impression. The other guy on the other bus made a general comment regarding a sociological situation I was discussing with some students that seemed most apropos. Sometimes, when the coincidences mount up, well…

Recently I attended a Senators hockey game with my longtime friend Brad Crowe, and it was my impression that there were a number of coincidences that night, from the upgrade of the tickets, to the nature of the conversation to Alfredsson throwing me his stick after being named first star.

I was and am uncomfortable with allowing my parents, or anyone, have their conversations recorded and broadcast (the media’s motives may be noble. They’re a hard bunch to figure, motivation-wise.) As a result I have tried, however badly, to collaborate with this situation as little as possible. And there is no doubt that it has caused and causes me great stress, as it would anyone, I think, unless they were massive extroverts and unconcerned with the morals of the situation.

Friends and family may well be subject to pressure from all sorts of sources, government, political parties, media organisations. Understanding that makes me more understanding of some of their behaviour, though it saddens me.

But when I go to a café and two men, reeking of being political aides, suddenly show up and sit beside me and, talk about progressive-issues, well, trying to take advantage of someone being bugged to advance a (NDP?) political agenda is almost unbelievable.

Having lived in Communist-era Poland as a teenager, when my room and house were bugged, as well as in the GDR, where I would be tailed all the time, these sorts of things are not entirely extraterrestrial to me. But it is extraordinary that in Canada some mostly innocuous political activist like myself (I do not know if I am even worthy of the term, but in this context how else should I describe myself?) should be subject to such treatment. It is not just evil, it is pig-stupid.


Most recently I was staying with a friend of my brother’s, who has two roommates, the aforementioned Dave Merleau and Al Barber (Al was also friendly with my brother in high school). First this Merleau, apparently with a Masters in philosophy, tried to argue a very silly point with me, playing to the "mikes" I believe, and got a drubbing for his trouble. Then he and Al would take shifts, one playing the radio in the kitchen beside my room at crazy levels early in the morning, and then late into the night, or the TV. One night I came home to find no-one downstairs and the TV on at volume "11" – I had left my door closed and my room was dark so I assume it was meant to wake me up/keep me awake. Some nights they would literally hammer on the surroundings all night to keep me awake, and then ask me in the morning how I slept. Luckily, I had earplugs. But it did tire me out.
Shortly before leaving that house I went to the library to write a draft of this message. I have an old Acer 370C laptop which does not have wifi built in, so I like to write things on it in peace, without the temptation of internet browsing. I had tried making a wireless card work, but it doesn’t. But there was an ethernet card in the slot that had never worked, or was it put there? D-Link DFE-650 100Mbps. So there I was at Carleton U., where you need all sorts of protocols to connect to the internet, and I had not tried to connect, not wanting to, not knowing any of the protocols, and not having the right technology, so I thought. But I had written two previous documents under similar conditions and had had the odd sensation that somehow they were being distributed all the same, seeing a phrase or two appear in the public record. I was thinking about this, and mentioned it out loud "to myself" when I removed the Ethernet card to check – only to see the computer immediately die, and stay dead every try. Now I have tried turning it back on and now it’s magically working again. Computers can be up and down, but this is weird. Maybe it was just coincidence, but one gets wary.
I can confirm that the sensation of being under constant electronic surveillance does indeed cause serious physical harm, as well as the expected mental-psychological harm, as has been reported. Every day there are periods when I feel wretched, sick in my stomach, physically and mentally heavy, desiring nothing more than to disappear, and while that sometimes translated into suicidal thoughts, often my only escape is to collapse into an unhappy sleep (more a faint than a nap), whatever my surroundings. I have slept on a bench in rain and hail, slept on a bench beside heavy traffic, etc., because my body just stops, and I feel dead, and at those moments I lack even the agency to cause my own death, seeking only immediate self-negation through sleep. Just thinking about this situation makes me feel sick, heavy, tired, as I do right now, trying to write this note. I feel a sickness in my stomach, a weary-heaviness in my head, and just sitting in front of a computer and thinking-writing feels intolerable. I takes all my effort to do so, and often I just stop abruptly, and afterwards I just collapse. There is at this moment, as I try to reread this paragraph, a bile rising in my mouth, a weary hurt in my head, a deadness in my eyes and face, and of course tension throughout my body, especially in my shoulders, as my body rebels against thinking horrible, "impossible" thoughts of ongoing, neverending, all-encompassing rape of my life by hundreds of people.

Part of that is knowing how impossible this all sounds, and how there are hundreds of people who have known of this for months (years?), and do so now, at this moment, as I write, and just observe and indeed profit from my abuse. Thinking-writing that thought now makes me feel sick in my stomach, or sicker.

The collective evil is so overwhelming it make me want to collapse, to die, to disappear. And knowing that it is unbelievable makes me feel self-negating, occasionally suicidal. It takes everything I have to try to stay alive, and to sit here and write, as my duty to inform the world. By the most minimal standards of decency, there is no justification for this abuse of me over the last months (years?). So I unwittingly became a political actor. I have done nothing illegal that I know of, and I have worked only for the public good as any social-democrat/social liberal/progressive would see it. Is it illegal to be able to think and write? And in so doing, to affect events? No, surely not. I have received as much flotsam and jetsam of information as anyone imbedded within their country's and within the world's politics does, but what has distinguished me is my ability to analyse things, to make connections, as it always has. But who would think this would lead to abusive surveillance, and complicity by all these other actors?

I don't understand this situation. Many people know more about it than I do, they know who hacked my email which they mentioned on twitter. They know about all the rest of it. And yet, no-one is talking. I rarely forget that less than 1% ever actively resist tyranny in any culture, but given the hundreds of people who know and have known for a long time about this situation, we are looking at zero out of several hundred people. Even if there was some legal prohibition (everywhere?!) usually there's someone, somewhere, willing to stand up and denounce such abuses (although I  can't think of any analogous abuses) despite threats, and once one person has spoken out, the rest can and do, if only to repeat the first person's words in news reports. But in this case, not a one, anywhere. And as anyone reading this will acknowledge, what I am describing seems so improbable, not to say impossible, that my own statement seems more likely the product of a mental condition than reality, and if it is true, then it would really need validation by those who know of it - yet, if we accept, for the sake of argument, that I am right, and they are staying silent, then my speaking of it just makes me look crazy and makes it easier for others to continue to observe me, mock me, and use my life as material for their own cultural production.

As I say, I don't understand this, and I don't understand the unanimity of people's behaviour. There seem to be a variety of motives at work, some positive (in their own minds), many malicious, either actively or lazily. Like a person, dislike a person, agree, disagree, some things are so beyond the pale of the most minimal standards of decency that it is unbelievable that so many can be so unanimously a party to such evil, or it would be, if that hadn't been the case for months (years?). Maybe I overestimate my moral fibre, but I find it hard to believe I would be party to such behaviour against my most loathed adversary even for a day. How could one?

Now I have written this, leaving much out, and doubtless making mistakes. But as noted at the very beginning, this seems to be largely true, as admitted by others who would know. So I ask that you redistribute this piece as widely as possible. I do not know if it will do any good, but it is all I can do, and it is all you can do. Anyone who has known me in the past knows that as mad as all this sounds, given what I am like, and given the third parties mentioned, this may just be true. As my cousin Aaron said: “freakier things have happened”.

Addendum – Relationship with media

As a blogging polemicist, I was trying to influence public debate and public affairs, and part of that was using the correct polemical tone to to start and maintain arguments, so as to push and pull debate as best I could. Egalitarian by nature, I was surprised to discover some in the media heavily resent bloggers (do they resent Speakers Corner in Hyde Park too?), which, in addition to the tone required to achieve my political objectives, may explain some of their less noble behavior. To be honest, when I first tried to go public to try to deal with this situation, I was surprised they did not all just admit my existence and role. It is perhaps this combination of general resentment of bloggers as a class, and my sometimes fierce tone in argument that might explain their behavior. But here are two things to give you an idea of what has been going on.

I write: Selfishly, LPC Should Hope PantaloneNDP Delivers a FordCPC Victory in Tranna

A few hours later online, and in next day’s Star: Could a Ford victory help the Liberals?

A few hours later online, and in next day’s Post: Pity the city’s left-wing voter

As for my general role re. the media, this argument with Dan Gardner (one of the few to show some decency re. my role) gives an idea:

From comments to: A bilingual Supreme Court? C'est pas si simple.

EugeneForseyLiberal
Good post. And as point of information, I'd add this:
Justice Committee 30/09/09, Comartin: "I had better put this on the record. I sat through the last four appointments to the Supreme Court. The last two rounds have been the prairie provinces and then the Maritimes. We're sworn to secrecy in sitting on those panels, but the reality is that there were more than enough candidates—I don't think I'm disclosing any surprises here—from both of those jurisdictions to meet that high test of bilingualism. I don't think I can say anything more than that without going into the specifics of their credentials, but there was not a problem with having a significant number of qualified candidates."

Justice Committee 17/06/09, Graham Fraser: "Again, I have a great deal of respect for Judge Major, but I'm not sure that somebody who doesn't speak the other language knows what he doesn't know. Donald Rumsfeld once talked about the known knowns and the unknown knowns. I don't know how a unilingual person can evaluate how important language knowledge is as a professional competence. By its very nature, if you don't speak another language, then you don't understand what you would understand if you did speak that other language."

Dan Gardner
No one, including me, said mandatory bilingualism meant there would be no GOOD candidates. But it will rule out a large portion of those who would otherwise be considered, which means the choice will be made from a much-shrunken pool of candidates -- and simple math says the BEST candidate will often not be in that shrunken pool.

By the way, I want to thank Philippe for providing a model of constructive criticism. So many can't seem to write about this without making ridiculous insults and accusations, eh Eugene?

And who is someone without legal training -- someone like Graham Fraser, par example -- to evaluate the importance of language or anything else to the professional competence of judges?

Careful with this argument, Eugene. You'll wind up telling everyone in Ottawa to shut up and then you'd have no one left to argue with.

"Brushing up"? This is not cocktail party bilingualism we're talking about. It's a level of fluency sufficient for handling complex jurisprudence, a level which, I dare say, many native-speakers would struggle to achieve. It took the chief justice years of hard work to get up to what she describes as "moderate" oral fluency and years more hard work -- in a bilingual work environment -- to finally achieve full fluency.

EugeneForseyLiberal
Hmm, I could swear the Gohier article under discussion contains testimony from someone with all the qualifications, legal and linguistic, not to mention the experience, to make that evaluation. Unless bizarro logic has now led some to claim a unilingual judge like Major is better at evaluating the importance of language than a bilingual one, like L'Heureux-Dubé? Curious. That sounds almost like the anti-factual, anti-empirical arguments so beloved of the Conservatives on crime and drugs matters. Unilinguals like Gardner & Major know better than actual bilingual jurists about the importance of language in legal affairs? Next we'll be privileging the testimony of well-meaning anti-drug hardliners over that of those who actually work on the front lines, who have actually seen things from both sides. I look forward to the expected columns now in favour of hardline anti-drug policies based on the deeply held convictions of the well-meaning ignorant.

I don't know if Google translation will do the trick but you might want to actually read the Le Devoir article: http://www.ledevoir.com/
politique/canada/287807/cour-supreme-le-bilinguisme-des-juges-est-essentiel-dit-claire-l-heureux-dube

Dan Gardner
I wasn't actually taking issue with the observation, necessarily, merely noting the absurdity of someone with no legal training making it.

And what's a "unilingual"? Is that some strange, distasteful species?

EugeneForseyLiberal
"And who is someone without legal training -- someone like Graham Fraser, par example -- to evaluate the importance of language or anything else to the professional competence of judges? "

So I simply pointed out the obvious, that a bilingual former SCC justice is definitely someone with the ultimate qualifications to make that evaluation. An evaluation that is impossible for a unilingual. Just as it's impossible, according to you, for a bilingual without legal training to make such evaluations.

I have nothing against unilinguals - some of my best friends are unilinguals, why, I remember this delightful unilingual I met once, so warm, so free and natural in its self-expression, how sad we bilinguals are so removed from our wild unilingual roots, out of touch with our natural selves, because of our overly intellectualised upbringing. Verily, far from disdain, I admire the noble unilingual savages, in all their primitive glory, etc. etc... ;)

Come now. You can't have your cake and eat it too. Either bilingualism is essential (not simply desirable, but essential) for our highest judges in a bijuridical bilingual country, or it is not. The question comes down to the perceived importance of language as part of culture and the law. It seems hard to see how one can claim someone with no knowledge of the "other" language can more credibly claim bilingualism should be optional than someone with, using your own criteria, legal training, who actually knows both languages and says language skills are so important to the law that bilingualism must be obligatory.

It seems easy enough to resolve the question. We poll all the bilingual lawyers and/or judges and ask them what they think, and abide by the results. We could even require a double majority, anglo bilinguals and franco bilinguals must both agree. I suppose the crucial issue would be to make sure we posed a clear question, so as we could ascertain a clear answer. I would even go so far as to say that the clearer the question, the lower the double majorities required to settle the matter.

Best,

EFL

PS. Next column: "I was wrong on listening to the best experts for making public policy all along, one should go with one's gut"?

EugeneForseyLiberal
Uh I wrote a reply and it seems to have disappeared, or maybe it never appeared - I was (am) out of the house, checking out some gear at the Apple store, checked in and typed away, so who knows what happened. Anyway, if Macleans can find it, good, if not, I'll check back later this evening and try to rewrite it. Basically, one can't have one's cake and eat it too. And some of my best friends are noble unilingual savages... ;)